Monday, November 17, 2008

The Bullshit, Part 1

I'm gonna write as I think, because this has become so convoluted and extensive, ya head could spin from the bullshit flyin'..................so as I feel like getting chunks off my chest without angering myself to the point of no return, I will write............

First things first, if I offend you, too fukkin bad. This is my joint, my blog, my little spot in cyberspace, so I can and will say and do what the fukk I please. I went outta my way to make sure that the heavy shit I had to say I did in my own territory because this is from ME, not some Big Brother association, some BB page or community, plain old friggin ME! And lookie here lookie here, this just so happens to be my joint, so I'm going to speak freely and for no one else but me myself & I.

Don't even dream of complaining you didn't “appreciate” what ya had to read in here, cause no one told you're asses to come here, let alone stay...........you came cause you were curious as to what I had to say, you're fooling no one. Furthermore, if you wanna come up with some bullshit that my voice must be shootin' outta someone else's ass, you can forget about that as well. I speak for no one but me, not the fan club, not the fan sites, not the fans..................for EA, thats it, so think again before conjuring up the notion I speak for anyone else in here.

And yes I am naming names. I don't play this bullshit of “I cant reveal my sources”, thats a coward's cop-out, or worse still, a liar's crutch. It's pretty damn convenient to make accusations based on “what ya heard” and then refuse to give up your source. That doesn't fly with me, so the people I am naming, sources and all, know it. They know me, they know how I operate, no big fukkin surprise I call people to the carpet..................

If you fukk up, ya own up, period.

Unless you live under a rock, you all know that all hell broke loose after Big Brother Fan Club hosted it's 1st chat with our dear Renny. I was not able to be there unfortunately, as my great uncle passed away and I tended to family matters and was with them recently to mourn in private. I came home on Monday and the shit I saw was enough for me to scream..................

My friends from BBHeaven had posted a bulletin with regards to some people being offended and/or insulted by some comments allegedly made by Renny in the chat. It was told to the ladies at Heaven, as they were not in the chat. Those that gave their opinions were Geneva (BB BabyGirl) & MommaT specifically, as they were the ones that were initially offended................

So I read this bulletin, my jaw hits the floor, and I get to work on finding out what the hell happened. Heaven was told that Renny supposedly had insulted people on SSI, people who didn't have the “means”, and also allegedly gave out a PO Box address requesting her fans send her gifts...............

I spoke with Geneva immediately and she was honest, saying yes it was she that spoke with her friends at Heaven, commenting on how she had felt offended by what she took as a direct hit to her, for she made mention of being on SSI etc. I didn't have any response whatsoever to give, how could I without having heard a word of this chat? I heard her out and told her I would get to the bottom of this one way or another.

The chat was mercifully recorded by our friend Dr. Carol, and posted on our Renny Fan Forum for everyone to listen to. I listened to it roughly 7 times in all I believe, dissecting it as much as possible, pausing when needed, you name it, to try and see where Renny had allegedly insulted anyone..........

Now, the comment in question was when Geneva mentioned she couldn't partake in any gift purchasing due to the fact that she lived on a budget due to SSI. The accusation was that Renny responded to that with “Please, budget, I don't wanna hear your sob stories or anyone looking for a damn handout”. Geneva took this to mean her...............crazy so far? No, not in my opinion, it's feasible.

I listened to this recording, and when Renny finally caught up to the scrolling in the room and saw the “Who Me?” reply by Geneva, she clearly states not once, but twice “No not you dawlin, not you, you're a fan, what I'm talkin' bout is the tons of people that walk up to me with their sob stories asking me for something”. You can hear Renny repeatedly trying to catch up with the screen scrolling by and how hard she is trying to keep up, so when she did catch something she would answer as fast as possible.

Now, nowhere in this chat is there any mention whatsoever of Renny requesting gifts, this is complete and total bullshit, something purely invented and not just misunderstood as the previous matter. I dare anyone to go listen to that chat and point out to me where in the hell Renny said such a thing, so having said that, that portion of the allegation is total shit plain and simple.

After reviewing the chat piece by piece, I had my say on MySpace naturally, and discussed it with both Geneva & BBHeaven. Our conversation went quite well and the result was both of them understood that in fact they had misunderstood Renny and that no, she did not intend to insult nor offend anyone of course, but more importantly, the end result was that Geneva & BBHeaven did see that in fact Renny did not slam Geneva for being on SSI, did not insult her (in fact assured her it was not her she was speaking of twice mind you) and that no, they heard for themselves, there was no bullshit where Renny would have the audacity to ask her fans to send her gifts!

Both Geneva & Heaven immediately apologized. No one is a baby here folks, they know they fukked up, but they owned up. Geneva sincerely felt diminished, and as I said to her I am saying publicly here and now, I can see how at FIRST she may have thought Renny was speaking negatively towards her. Once you listen to that chat and know WHAT to listen for it's obvious that wasn't the case, so Geneva wasn't off her rocker for thinking so initially in my opinion. Her actions were a simple “oops, my bad, I was wrong and I misunderstood” and she took her lumps for being mistaken Lord knows.

BBHeaven also messed up, they know it, we have discussed this in detail people this is not news to anyone! Their mistake was listening to what people said Renny had to say, rather than first attempting to hear it for themselves. The one thing I allow for here is they were going by what they had been told by friends, so it was perhaps easier to swallow what was being told to them. If a friend whispers something in my ear, chances are I am listening with more belief than say a fukkin nutjob who I know nothing off.

So in essence, yes Geneva & BBHeaven were in the wrong, thats not in question, but their actions afterwards is what spoke volumes to me, with their retractions of the bulletins, the blatant and humbled “mea culpas” that were sent in their place, and none of this baloney of “I didn't do anything wrong, I just expressed an opinion” that I heard left and right.

What really tickles my ass is the fact that people thought I was upset with the idea that people had an opinion, that my stance on this whole topic was “how dare they think for themselves?” yes yes people, that's what my Nazi ass was thinking, that I could not believe the cajones on you cats for even thinking of having an opinion....................gimme a fukkin break.

Geneva wasn't “wrong” if she felt offended, she was wrong in how she misquote Renny, its that easy. She is entitled to feeling however the flying fukk she wants, as long as when she shares so publicly she does so with accurate knowledge..........no one, not even I, the Queen of the Internet, am entitled to tell others how they should feel. I know, it's sickening that I wasn't granted those powers and believe you me, I am working on that, ain't that right Big Red? (looking below)

At any rate, as I said, damage control was then kicked into gear. My rage stemmed from the fact that we were playing with this woman's reputation here, being Renny, so to incorrectly misquote her or to make accusations made from misunderstandings and/or outright lies was not ok with me.................I'm the damn President of the BBFC that did the fukkin chat, hello?!??!?!

I have gone over this in great length with both Geneva & Heaven, and in my opinion did and still do continue to feel regretful that they leapt before looking, and since then have made tremendous attempts at making amends, which as far as I am personally concerned, was enough to put out my flames. None of us are perfect and I certainly don't expect one to never make a mistake. How one takes accountability for that mistake makes it or breaks it for me, so if you can't step up and take a hit when you step in shit, I got no damn respect for you..............none.

So no, I am not upset with either Geneva nor BBHeaven. They know exactly how I felt then and how I feel now. They are aware of what angered me then and why I now feel they are doing the best they know to make it right again. More than that I can't ask of them, or anyone involved in this shit for that matter. It's those double-talkin' cowards who are involved in all of this I will address soon, because that's what burns my ass and I am tired of the hypocrites that say one thing to me in an email and then say another when they think I'm not listening. I'm listening you fukks, I'm listenin', and I'm taking notes and will handle you, believe in that..................

That's all mama has got to say for now, I think this was more than enough shit to spit out for starters. This is only the tip of the iceberg cats, there's so much more that was said and done behind the scenes, and here's the beauty of it all, Renny knows it. Yeah, our dear Renny knows everything and who and where it came from, and so bearing that in mind I made it clear to all involved in this ridiculous bashing saga that I was calling bullshit on people cause this doesn't just affect me, it affects a BB community and an actual HG trying to connect with her fans

I ain't tolerating anymore shit people, I am laying all the cards out on the table so the HG's we deal with especially can go forth having more faith in us as fans, because as of right now, it's very disheartening and I don't give a fukk who I piss off in the process, you know where I am if you got something to say to me................if this was as simple as having pissed me off, I could have brushed it off and handled this quietly, but since it has gone as far as upset an HG, well that does it for me................

I will write more as my nerves settle and I tie up 2 more bullshit lies I was told recently. Connecting the dots of this mess has been enlightening....................

Till my next installment, the Queen retires...............

EA

Saturday, November 15, 2008

I've Been Crowned

Oh dear everyone, apparently I made the Royal Court................

I am the Queen of the Internet, you better recognize me for who I am everyone...........

If you're as confused as I am by this, I will explain it all very soon

For now, I have my pathetic servants to tend to, royalty is a bitch you know......

EA

Friday, November 14, 2008

Yep, I'm Back............

Ok, so you wanted me to blog again, I'm bloggin'..............
Couldnt think of a better time to do so actually, considering all the bullshit that's been going down over on the BB Sites in myspace land.

I got plenty to say on this topic, and will, by tomorrow I believe, once I got my poop in a group.

As I stated in the little bulletin I pegged, don't even dream of bitchin' you didnt have a say if you didnt bother to reply to me when I asked you a flat out question people.

Peace out Heffas
EA

Monday, January 21, 2008

My Speech

Here is the speech I had to give for Final 2:


Hello Heffas

Well, who friggin knew? Me in the damn Final 2?!?!??!?!

Am I gonna go soft now cause ya gotta vote? Nope, sorry, aint that kinda party.

Luckily to some extent, the people who ARE voting weren’t the people that pissed me off or vice versa, unless I did and ya just never had the spine to tell me so. I don’t think that’s the case when I look around at who is in this little circle, but ya neva know!

If I did in fact piss you off, I am not sorry. I am pretty sure whatever the fuck it was, it was well deserved, so no, don’t email mama with the semantics of it all or the boo-hoo of how I may or may not have hurt your feelings, couldn’t care less. If I upset you, everything I did in this game I meant, so I must have meant it folks……………….

To those I KNOW I offended or pissed off who don’t even get to vote, HA HA!

Aaaaaw, bites big donkey dikk don’t it? Couldn’t smile wider if I tried heffas, sweet irony to not even have a voice ya friggin douchebags…………………….if I know I pissed ya off, I especially wanna take this moment, this here sweet tender moment of mine, to tell you to ever so gently fuck off……………………..rinse, repeat, and then fuck off just once more for mama.............

I know at times I came off harsh and I know I had some episodes to speak, and again have no regrets. I like quite a few of you and take pride in speaking up in one’s defense; I make no apologies for it.

I never took the fake route out, I never took it easy and stuck my neck out each and every time and I am very pleased I did do so, because win or lose, you know who I am and there were no surprises outta me. Call me what you will, a phony or a hypocrite you cannot. There were no "You're a liar, but I love ya" lines flyin' outta me. I played hard, and fought hard (in every sense of the word) and I was fiercely loyal to those I give a shit about. The mere fact that Trish and I are Final 2 is a testament to that people, as we were blatantly aligned in and out of this game.

If I made a friend outta you, thank you. Sincerely, thank you. I don’t make friends easily nor do I take them lightly if I do call you a friend. I am not exactly popular with this here temper of mine, but I am however real, and some of you took some notice of that and I am grateful. Even if you didn’t always agree with my tactics & how I handles things, some of you actually stepped outside of yourselves and acknowledged that I was always real with it, even at the risk of being tossed out, so that in itself speaks volumes with the kind of people YOU are & who I got to play with Season 2 of this game…………….

My stats on the technical end of this game speak for themselves; I never slacked and won many a comp! I know I was criticized to shut the fuck up more than once when I was “doing well” so to speak and people didn’t come after me, but I just couldn’t, and again make no apologies for it. Am I shocked I was never on the block? LOL I couldn’t be more shocked if I grew a third nipple, but hey, stranger things I am sure will happen in our lives.

Do I deserve to be here? Sure as hell do. Do I deserve to win? Sure as hell do. Here’s the beauty of it all, if I don’t, look who does? My baby girl! So you tell me how this could possibly end badly for me? It cant, it won’t, and for that alone this game for me was not only fantastic, but more than I could have hoped for………………

I made some incredible friends, some real good people came through here, you know who you are. I even got to stick around long enough to end up liking people I didn’t hit it off with at first who in the end became people I sincerely liked, that’s a gain right there on it’s own. Final 4 girls, Baby Boy, need I say more about you guys and what ya mean to me? If I do, shit, email me lata and I will write ya a little somethin’ somethin’, the damn game’s on people!

Ok, so that about does it and wraps it up. Vote away folks and thank you for a fantastic game. Thank you for all the delicious fights ya tossed me here and there and thank you for the actual friendship I got to cultivate outta an online game filled with strangers who I may have never met…………………..shit, that sounded a little soft, was that soft? I may have gone too far there…………..so let me end it with this………

A monkey only whistles when its ass is being violated…………………..

Peace out Heffas
EA

Best Woman Won :-)

CONGRATS TO MY MAMA TRISH!!!!!

My girl beat me in a 4-3 vote and took the 1st place as BBFANTASY GAME SEASON 2's WINNER!!!!! YEAH YA DO!!!!!!

Lets face it folks, she deserved this win over me, she was so dedicated to this game! She stuck her neck out, made moves that would make ya blush, and hauled ass!!!! Between the 2 of us we won more HOH & Veto comps than you can count, so mama is grinnin' from ear to ear to watch someone who deserved it win...........

To anyone who thinks I didn't deserve it, seriously, my left one is here for you to suck on. I never claimed I didn't deserve it, I sure as hell did, but not over my girl no, being honest with myself. She put more into it than I did, but I make no apologies for that, I did a hell of a job in this game kickin ass in comps and making it to every single event there was. No I didnt do the day to day chit chat as frequently, I got a sick father to tend to, and thats where my priorities lie folks, I am good with that. But I cant count the times I would have to walk home, sometimes almost an hour walk, to make it to the HOH comp that night, so I did a hell of a job putting in the dedication this game requires and juggling my personal life & responsibilities.............so yeah, I deserved it heffas, just not over my incredible opponent :-)

Don't be mad she got ya, don't be bitter, it's ok, suck on a Jello Puddin' Pop people, go make yaselves feel better. Stings that she won huh??? LOL Oh it's delicious, watching people cry "she was a puppetmaster, it's not fair". Wasnt she though? Didnt she just kill ya????? If ya had strings attached to ya joints, blame yaself cause all she did was play a BRILLIANT game, nobody put guns to ya heads, you went along with plans when it benefitted you and cried when it no longer did. Oh, so sad, let's all read from the book of Psalm, a spiritual hymn perhaps to soothe the soul................somebody get Jameka on the line, we need an amen.........

Then I hear the cries of anguish that her and I were Final 2. HA! Whose fault is that??? I told people to fuck off left and right, went on tirades for hours at a time some nights, did anyone ever place my loud mouth ass on the block? Nope, flew right under the radar.........oh this has to hurt..............

To make it even better, everyone knew she & I were alligned and thick as thieves from day friggin ONE! DAY ONE! We made no bones about it, declared it and strutted like peacocks over it every chance we got............ouch, I know I know.........get the Band-Aids and some ointment, it'll be ok.........

Oh and the mail, the hate mail to be specific, oh how it flows in. Funny, none of ya douchebags have the balls to post in HERE though, all hidin' behind ya daddy's left leg, but that's ok. I will post the juicier ones soon for everyone to enjoy.
I just had to get this off my chest first, but I didnt forget about ya :-)

For those that wanted my speech, it will be posted rght after this, just separately so this friggin post aint a mile long.

EA

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

And The Hate Mail Begins.........

Hello hello!

Well, I knew it was bound to happen, but not so soon I must admit. I haven't even begun expressing my thoughts mind you, and already I have people loathing me, Christmas has been extended for me apparently, this is delicious.....................

I got this particular doozy 2 nights ago:

"I hope you know that there's nothing great about idolizing an asshole like EvelDick, and the fact that you actually dont mind being described as his female counterpart shows me what kind of person you are! That man is a lude, crude and disgusting human being, so what does that make you? That's right, his counterpart! I hope your proud of yourself, because if your half as bad as he is, who in their right mind is going to want to read your blogs?"

Well my dear, apparently YOU will want to read my blogs, as you have. Oh and let's see, the millions and millions of people who adore the man perhaps might pop in. You know, as he was the winner and all ........................

I do love him so...................he is my mentor. Him and Karen Walker let's not forget, from Will & Grace. My little Anastasia Beaverhausen! She's lovely, isn't she? I'm getting there folks, I am so getting there, and these little emails put a smile on my face like no other, so keep 'em coming......

What did I fukkin' say from the get go people? This aint the joint to hold hands and proclaim that we are in fact the world................we aren't, nor are we the friggin' children, so simma down. If you want nice, go to the myriads of other sites regarding Big Brother, like my ladies at BBHeaven, BBDish, TrishyDoll, Jenny & Sherry, those ladies are divine...............me, well, I am as well, for a completely different set of reasons granted :-)

Now, with that said, I beg of you to defer to my 1st post, where I outline the gist of it all and what I am like. Aaawww, I don't gove you that soft warm and fuzzy feeling, is that it? Well shoot, perhaps if ya shit ya pants, you can achieve that feeling by passing on the Pepto...............

In the meantime, if ya come here, this is what you will get folks, plain and simple. And the beauty of it all is chances are the people that will loathe me most are the ones that will frequent this blog consistently, ain't that a bitch???? You need a reason to rave about how terrible I am, and how will one do that without reading up, I know how it works, so bon appetit..............

Oh and uh, by the way...............................it's only gonna get worse, so pull up a fukkin' chair assholes, mama has plenty to keep ya busy hating me :-)

EvelAlida

Monday, January 7, 2008

We Warned You

You're here? You sure you meant to come here? You sure now? This ain't no cutesy, feel-good, why cant we all just get along joint so think it over.........................

There will be no singing of Cumbaya, there will be no "oh isn't she lovely? I especially like that blouse on her" bullshit, there will be no sugar coating whatsoever. If you're good with that, stay tuned cats...........................

BB9 starting up soon and here's prayin' these heffas are half as interestin' as the last batch were. My personal hero & role model as you know, ED, well really now, is there a chance in hell there will be another him? No, ain't' happenin', nobody's cut from that cloth, but one can wish for an 1/8th of that honesty to come through the tube this season....................people thought it was a slam to me to tag me as the "female version of him", ha! I ain't that good yet, it's coming with age though, and the older I get, the more friends I lose, it's refreshing really..................

Can we get another Whaaaamber in the joint? Oh most likely, we know there's typically a resident cryin' bitch who just cant' help but turn on the waterworks when it suits them. THAT I am NOT looking forward to, last season there were too many times I wanted to reach through my screen to cut that woman....................God Bless her God, amen........................

Can we get another Jameka??? Oh yeah, ya know it. What's the house without a good Christian? We learned it's fun last season, so there's a great chance of "He Who Walks On Water" to join us, sprinkle a few proverbs here and there, maybe christen an iguana or two, pray for all our sins, you know the drill......................let us pray....................

Then of course we need another slab of Man Meat to look at, that's always a given. The muscles we've come to know and love and all................oh wait, let's not forget there is sure to be a Silicone Slut occupying a bed now, can't forget Sweet Tits, always a token one of those too..........

Are we getting a homo this season? Man, I hope we get a homo. I am a big fan of the homo, so I need someone to pitch to me here people, preferably a woman that looks stunningly like Shakira, belly dance and all.........................9 outta 10 times gals who kiss gals get the likes of Nakomis to look at, eeeeeeessssshhhhh! These cats are tryin' to put them on pecker permanently............................

Ah well, I got lots of hopes for this season, we'll see. In the meantime, feel free to tell me how "wrong" I am, or how I shouldn't "use certain words", yeah I know I know, got it folks, but remember, you came to me. Here's my disclaimer:

"People suck, I don't like people. If it weren't for the fact that now and then a sista needs a little somethin', I would go without. I got friends, the ones that stuck around and appreciate me in my evel glory work for me, so nope, don't have a burnin' desire to make new ones, carry on."

EvelAlida (EA)