The Bullshit, Part 1

I'm gonna write as I think, because this has become so convoluted and extensive, ya head could spin from the bullshit flyin'..................so as I feel like getting chunks off my chest without angering myself to the point of no return, I will write............

First things first, if I offend you, too fukkin bad. This is my joint, my blog, my little spot in cyberspace, so I can and will say and do what the fukk I please. I went outta my way to make sure that the heavy shit I had to say I did in my own territory because this is from ME, not some Big Brother association, some BB page or community, plain old friggin ME! And lookie here lookie here, this just so happens to be my joint, so I'm going to speak freely and for no one else but me myself & I.

Don't even dream of complaining you didn't “appreciate” what ya had to read in here, cause no one told you're asses to come here, let alone stay...........you came cause you were curious as to what I had to say, you're fooling no one. Furthermore, if you wanna come up with some bullshit that my voice must be shootin' outta someone else's ass, you can forget about that as well. I speak for no one but me, not the fan club, not the fan sites, not the fans..................for EA, thats it, so think again before conjuring up the notion I speak for anyone else in here.

And yes I am naming names. I don't play this bullshit of “I cant reveal my sources”, thats a coward's cop-out, or worse still, a liar's crutch. It's pretty damn convenient to make accusations based on “what ya heard” and then refuse to give up your source. That doesn't fly with me, so the people I am naming, sources and all, know it. They know me, they know how I operate, no big fukkin surprise I call people to the carpet..................

If you fukk up, ya own up, period.

Unless you live under a rock, you all know that all hell broke loose after Big Brother Fan Club hosted it's 1st chat with our dear Renny. I was not able to be there unfortunately, as my great uncle passed away and I tended to family matters and was with them recently to mourn in private. I came home on Monday and the shit I saw was enough for me to scream..................

My friends from BBHeaven had posted a bulletin with regards to some people being offended and/or insulted by some comments allegedly made by Renny in the chat. It was told to the ladies at Heaven, as they were not in the chat. Those that gave their opinions were Geneva (BB BabyGirl) & MommaT specifically, as they were the ones that were initially offended................

So I read this bulletin, my jaw hits the floor, and I get to work on finding out what the hell happened. Heaven was told that Renny supposedly had insulted people on SSI, people who didn't have the “means”, and also allegedly gave out a PO Box address requesting her fans send her gifts...............

I spoke with Geneva immediately and she was honest, saying yes it was she that spoke with her friends at Heaven, commenting on how she had felt offended by what she took as a direct hit to her, for she made mention of being on SSI etc. I didn't have any response whatsoever to give, how could I without having heard a word of this chat? I heard her out and told her I would get to the bottom of this one way or another.

The chat was mercifully recorded by our friend Dr. Carol, and posted on our Renny Fan Forum for everyone to listen to. I listened to it roughly 7 times in all I believe, dissecting it as much as possible, pausing when needed, you name it, to try and see where Renny had allegedly insulted anyone..........

Now, the comment in question was when Geneva mentioned she couldn't partake in any gift purchasing due to the fact that she lived on a budget due to SSI. The accusation was that Renny responded to that with “Please, budget, I don't wanna hear your sob stories or anyone looking for a damn handout”. Geneva took this to mean her...............crazy so far? No, not in my opinion, it's feasible.

I listened to this recording, and when Renny finally caught up to the scrolling in the room and saw the “Who Me?” reply by Geneva, she clearly states not once, but twice “No not you dawlin, not you, you're a fan, what I'm talkin' bout is the tons of people that walk up to me with their sob stories asking me for something”. You can hear Renny repeatedly trying to catch up with the screen scrolling by and how hard she is trying to keep up, so when she did catch something she would answer as fast as possible.

Now, nowhere in this chat is there any mention whatsoever of Renny requesting gifts, this is complete and total bullshit, something purely invented and not just misunderstood as the previous matter. I dare anyone to go listen to that chat and point out to me where in the hell Renny said such a thing, so having said that, that portion of the allegation is total shit plain and simple.

After reviewing the chat piece by piece, I had my say on MySpace naturally, and discussed it with both Geneva & BBHeaven. Our conversation went quite well and the result was both of them understood that in fact they had misunderstood Renny and that no, she did not intend to insult nor offend anyone of course, but more importantly, the end result was that Geneva & BBHeaven did see that in fact Renny did not slam Geneva for being on SSI, did not insult her (in fact assured her it was not her she was speaking of twice mind you) and that no, they heard for themselves, there was no bullshit where Renny would have the audacity to ask her fans to send her gifts!

Both Geneva & Heaven immediately apologized. No one is a baby here folks, they know they fukked up, but they owned up. Geneva sincerely felt diminished, and as I said to her I am saying publicly here and now, I can see how at FIRST she may have thought Renny was speaking negatively towards her. Once you listen to that chat and know WHAT to listen for it's obvious that wasn't the case, so Geneva wasn't off her rocker for thinking so initially in my opinion. Her actions were a simple “oops, my bad, I was wrong and I misunderstood” and she took her lumps for being mistaken Lord knows.

BBHeaven also messed up, they know it, we have discussed this in detail people this is not news to anyone! Their mistake was listening to what people said Renny had to say, rather than first attempting to hear it for themselves. The one thing I allow for here is they were going by what they had been told by friends, so it was perhaps easier to swallow what was being told to them. If a friend whispers something in my ear, chances are I am listening with more belief than say a fukkin nutjob who I know nothing off.

So in essence, yes Geneva & BBHeaven were in the wrong, thats not in question, but their actions afterwards is what spoke volumes to me, with their retractions of the bulletins, the blatant and humbled “mea culpas” that were sent in their place, and none of this baloney of “I didn't do anything wrong, I just expressed an opinion” that I heard left and right.

What really tickles my ass is the fact that people thought I was upset with the idea that people had an opinion, that my stance on this whole topic was “how dare they think for themselves?” yes yes people, that's what my Nazi ass was thinking, that I could not believe the cajones on you cats for even thinking of having an opinion....................gimme a fukkin break.

Geneva wasn't “wrong” if she felt offended, she was wrong in how she misquote Renny, its that easy. She is entitled to feeling however the flying fukk she wants, as long as when she shares so publicly she does so with accurate knowledge..........no one, not even I, the Queen of the Internet, am entitled to tell others how they should feel. I know, it's sickening that I wasn't granted those powers and believe you me, I am working on that, ain't that right Big Red? (looking below)

At any rate, as I said, damage control was then kicked into gear. My rage stemmed from the fact that we were playing with this woman's reputation here, being Renny, so to incorrectly misquote her or to make accusations made from misunderstandings and/or outright lies was not ok with me.................I'm the damn President of the BBFC that did the fukkin chat, hello?!??!?!

I have gone over this in great length with both Geneva & Heaven, and in my opinion did and still do continue to feel regretful that they leapt before looking, and since then have made tremendous attempts at making amends, which as far as I am personally concerned, was enough to put out my flames. None of us are perfect and I certainly don't expect one to never make a mistake. How one takes accountability for that mistake makes it or breaks it for me, so if you can't step up and take a hit when you step in shit, I got no damn respect for you..............none.

So no, I am not upset with either Geneva nor BBHeaven. They know exactly how I felt then and how I feel now. They are aware of what angered me then and why I now feel they are doing the best they know to make it right again. More than that I can't ask of them, or anyone involved in this shit for that matter. It's those double-talkin' cowards who are involved in all of this I will address soon, because that's what burns my ass and I am tired of the hypocrites that say one thing to me in an email and then say another when they think I'm not listening. I'm listening you fukks, I'm listenin', and I'm taking notes and will handle you, believe in that..................

That's all mama has got to say for now, I think this was more than enough shit to spit out for starters. This is only the tip of the iceberg cats, there's so much more that was said and done behind the scenes, and here's the beauty of it all, Renny knows it. Yeah, our dear Renny knows everything and who and where it came from, and so bearing that in mind I made it clear to all involved in this ridiculous bashing saga that I was calling bullshit on people cause this doesn't just affect me, it affects a BB community and an actual HG trying to connect with her fans

I ain't tolerating anymore shit people, I am laying all the cards out on the table so the HG's we deal with especially can go forth having more faith in us as fans, because as of right now, it's very disheartening and I don't give a fukk who I piss off in the process, you know where I am if you got something to say to me................if this was as simple as having pissed me off, I could have brushed it off and handled this quietly, but since it has gone as far as upset an HG, well that does it for me................

I will write more as my nerves settle and I tie up 2 more bullshit lies I was told recently. Connecting the dots of this mess has been enlightening....................

Till my next installment, the Queen retires...............

EA

I've Been Crowned

Oh dear everyone, apparently I made the Royal Court................

I am the Queen of the Internet, you better recognize me for who I am everyone...........

If you're as confused as I am by this, I will explain it all very soon

For now, I have my pathetic servants to tend to, royalty is a bitch you know......

EA

Yep, I'm Back............

Ok, so you wanted me to blog again, I'm bloggin'..............
Couldnt think of a better time to do so actually, considering all the bullshit that's been going down over on the BB Sites in myspace land.

I got plenty to say on this topic, and will, by tomorrow I believe, once I got my poop in a group.

As I stated in the little bulletin I pegged, don't even dream of bitchin' you didnt have a say if you didnt bother to reply to me when I asked you a flat out question people.

Peace out Heffas
EA